So, now what? Jobs, housing and all the rest

I have been thinking.

(Can you hear the gears grinding?)

I have been thinking about life, and work, and money, and vocation.

What to do, what to do?

I have applied for a job that I really, REALLY want. A job that would be just the sort of things that I want to do, plus using my strongest skills, that will let me develop the ones I've got and do all this while benefiting my church.

Did I mention that I really, really want this job?

But that's as may be. Really really wanting a job is not the same as actually getting it (though I'm trying to think positive here).

What if I don't get it? What then of my vocation and my wish to serve the church (not to mention my pressing need not to starve, and my other need to live in a residential dwelling).

BH and I are buying a house together. Various family members have offered loans, and the area we're looking to live is cheap. So we're hopefully making an offer this week.

Ah, but what if I don't get the job? Well then...I'll get another one, I hope. And thus fulfill our needs to eat and live, and maybe even start paying off those aforementioned loans. And, of course, BH is looking for a job too.

Help. Help, God. I want to do this job. I think it fits with my vocation, and I want to earn a living too.

Plus my DDO called recently and wanted to know what was going on and I said...not for a few years. I want to be a priest. I do. But not now. I think...that I want to work out my vocation in non-ordained ways for a bit. And maybe to do other stuff unrelated to the above too.

Not to mention, thinking some distance into the future, what are the C of E's maternity policies like?